I’ve always had a messy desk. I’ve beat myself up for years about doing too much, taking on too much, lateral filing (you know, where you leave everything spread out so you don’t lose anything). I find the same problem with the desktop and my google tabs.
Recently, I found myself signing up for one meditation challenge or course after another. I watched this with the same critical mindset - thinking here you go again, taking on too much, cluttering your life…. But I didn’t attempt to stop myself. Just observed this loading up of on-going video meditations and zoom groups.
And the effect has been startling. Suddenly as I wander, amble or careen through my day, these courses and meditations pop up in my email box. Along with the multiple appeals for donations, the announcements of sales and specials at my favorite stores or simply my last on-line purchase site, I get reminders telling me a video with this meditation teacher is available now for a week or that zoom conversation. And I stop and go in. Sort of like walking down the street of crowded shops to a store front that says, come in and meditate.
And I do. I stop, watch a video, do a meditation, read an article.
And I’ve noticed I’m not so caught by mediocre mysteries which have been my go to for before bed reading. Now I want to continue reading from a meditation teacher’s article or book. And I feel the difference in wholesomeness.
I’m still messy, my desk and desktop are still cluttered. But more often I’m caught by a wholesome item that gives me a chance to breathe and be in my body, to stop and simply be.
Good clutter, along with the bad.